Phases




I havent changed. Yes i am the same person you left. But you may see a difference now and thats alright. You would be wondering how can i go on like that, when i see you with talking to others, giving your time to others, doing things for people you once did for me, with me. How i can be such a fake and all that words that came from me and had this intensity only something real can- now seem that they could have been imitated from reality with so much perfection that you didnt notice that they were just made up. It may seem to you that all these thorough insights you have developed by diving in the pile of memories we had together clearly show that i have changed or it was not real but i want to tell you that niether of it is the case. It was real. Everything, the love, the moments we spent, nothing was fake. I didnt change, I am standing up despite of everything. I am standing on my feet not because i have this change thing backing me up. I have developed my strength to endure, i have accepted things. I have made my heart so big that all this tragedy hits me but still i could manage to stand. I didnt made myself hard and cold. I am the same person who is sensitive and soft but yes i have increased my strength, i have increased my will to face things and go on, to compromise with my let go's and holding on's. Maybe my argument doesnt supports the point that i am same so well or maybe i have changed in some sort of way or these terms actually depict change. Maybe i have done both, staying same and change, together.


-You can stay what you are and still grow

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